Kindergarten

im just a kid here to tell a story, im not here for the title nor am i here for the glory,not in it for the money fortune or fame, i dont even expect you to remember my name, im just here to share a chapter in this book called life and how it can be ripped from your grasp in just one night,how there are thoughts and things that get in your minds, they tear you up eating at your insides,theyre like a sick infection beneath your skin, you want it out but you cant help to let it back in, it can be a habit an addiction or friends, no matter what the case the carousel never ends, its sick and its twisted but it dont care, itll suck your life out till theres nothing there,youll grasp for air pull out your hair as your lyin there tryn to grin and bear thinkin is god really there?, your all alone in a dim lit home thinkin if your the only one left on this globe, askin questions youll never figure out,frustrated overwhelmed wanna scream and shout, you start to pout hopin you can cry it out, when your finished all thats left is to die it out, your stuck with what you got you fell from the top youve been forgot like an old car in an abandoned lot, you put up big signs say your lifes for sale, you lost it all and guess what you cant do well, forget your talent you stuck at rock bottom, just like the rest but have you all forgotten, its time to rise up man show them yo stuff, make them regret never thinkin to bring you up,show them you belong too, if i can so can you, make your story heard spread the word, make it big just like they never thought you did, but dont forget this story came from a kid

A Wonderfully Poor Vocabulary :)

Once upon a time is how we wish it would be, where life is a fairytale and everything is free, livin in a time where everything is right, the world dont fight, its nice day and night, but thats not how it goes we gotta stand up tall, embrace ourselves and get ready for the fall, expect the unexpected, direct the undirected, were livin in a world chalk full of lies, and we gotta dream and just hope to get by, where the rich stay rich and the poor stay poor, we gotta pray for oppurtunity to knock on the door, and theres an aura in the air that just stays there and its just not fair how nobody cares, because this place we live in just loves to hate, push you around and discriminate, tell you its them that controls your fate, but wait its not too late there is one last hope and this one wont fail, you can be in a church or in the county jail, wherever your heart lies your problems will be solved, youll notice that your anxiety will soon dissolve, all i ask from you is to do a favor for me, just say "I Believe Christ Died For Me", i know it sounds fishy itll start off slow, but you have to let it set,fertilize, and grow, things might click and others may not, but its up to you to give all that you got.

No, Not Physical Eduaction But I'm Still Gettin' A Workout

This weekend was amazing...i cant thank anyone enough...friday was fun and saturday started off slow....my mom and sister got baptised :) and i visited with my nana and papa :) hadnt seen them in a while...went to Janays! saw Lippy and her bf Sawyer...guy was so nervous lol...then i went and had a nice dinner with my family as well as the ROSE family! Chris was sick so i was sad :( had a fun night with justin and tyler and just shot the bull all night...(means to just kick around and talk)...got up and spent some quality time with none other then the most beautiful girl in the world...Mrs. Basham :) watched Juno and Mammia Mia all cuddled on my couch :) i got to kiss her again and it felt so amazing :) i felt as if i could fly! isn't it wonderful to be a teen in love? now about 80% of those who read this doubt our love...but if she's feeling like im feeling we'll beat all odds and last for pretty much forever:) so suck it up :) i LOVE her,her family,everyone :) loving this natural high :) yay Jesus! and heck yes for Hellogoodbye! (she said kissing me was like kissing for the first time all over again with the butterflies and all O.O) "I'm So Excited!" (P.E!) no not physical education....the title for a movie! :) damn im feeling swell :P

When Your Heart Stops Beating

so these past two days have been a very climactic point in my short life so far...ive learned that my parents arent so fond of each other anymore...and that God can make things happen...i prayed for a second chance with Hannah and im getting one...im giving this one my all...she is my future wife...i felt this...i just know it...i hope she feels the same way...but life is so interesting...the people and situations it puts you through...when you least want God thats when you need him most and i learned that as well and its working out pretty darn good...i gotta keep this hope...i do feel bad for Jimmy...he and Hannah had a thing for a while...but im sure he'll get over it pretty quickly...now i feel its up to me to lead my friends in a good direction..and shes gonna help me :)I'll be there with her forever

Another Night Like This,One More Time Now

i know...i get it...right? get over her? stop feeling so down that whole bit...i know i need to stop sitting here complaining...who knows what God's plan is? maybe we will get back together and become some youth minstry leaders somewhere like we had originally planned...maybe we wont..she likes a guy(or so im told) so shes trying to forget...but her friend tells me that is she really loved me that she would miss me and we would end up back together...i hate when i receive advice like that...because then i hold onto that hope where it be false or not and people condemn me for doing so...its God's plan whatever the result...i have to trust in it 100%....but with a posible threat of a divorce between my parents its hard to cope with the fact that shes not there to comfort me...im lucky to know God and ot be leaning on his shoulder right now because i wouldnt make it otherwise...she would definately help but doesnt want to...im afraid of saying it couldnt get any worse because knowing my luck it will...so here i sit again...pondering...contemplating on my future...what about her? and us? what about my family? my careers in life? where will i go? what will i do? friends? all i know is that God states in scripture that he has a plan for us... Jeremiah 29:11 "for i know the plans i have for you declares the lord, plans of good and not evil...to give you future and a hope...Proverbs 3:5-6 "trust in the lord with all your heart and lean now on your own understanding in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight" i gope and pray to you my Lord...i gotta stick it out until the end

Fragile:Handle With Care

hope for the best and prepare for the worst right? wrong...if you want to be ready for life...expect the worst all the time...i would love to be able to hope but its just that much more of a let down....im trying God...i am...she just...ugh

Perseverance:"The Act Of Trying Even When You Don't Want To"

well...tonight was interesting...golfing today was fun...tyler then came into town and he mikey and i drove around...got shakes and fries and went to wal-mart...where we say Tony Jelso and then shortly thereafter watched Wall-E on the 42-inch TV display while sitting on the floor for an hour. That was fun...we drove around downtown then went to look for anything to do ended up at the bowling alle drove off the curb in tylers bronco and got a flat...but thats not all...while we waited for Nick Rose to come with a jack...we got to venting...tyler went on about how everyone gets to party and get shit-faced and we try to be good guys and get shit on by everybody and everything else...how crap always happens to us...why dont we get a break...mike complained about how he didnt get laid...Nick got there and i started ranting about her...again...mikey was saying well if you hate life just get some whiskey and drink it away if thats what you want...i told him this. "what i want? what i want is to take hannah apologize and love her watch Mrs. Congeniality eat ben and jerry's chocolate chip cookie dough and cry with her under my red fuzzy blanky where i can feel warm and safe from life hardships...where all my problems get washed away...is with her" thats what i want...but i dont get that...nice guys finish last right? everyone else gets a break while we average joes try to be the good ones and get crapped on in the meantime...mikey still complained about how god hasnt sent him his virgin...he gives me shit because i write blogs about how life is so damn confusing...Nick Rose was lauhging and mentioned the cat pee on my redblanket that happened like 6 months ago...and i made some metaphor about how the cat pee is sin and jesus is going to wash my red blanky or what not...and i told Nick no matter how hard i try or dont try or do what she says or not or anything its not like she'll take me back...we cant be the dynamic jesus duo...she wont let it happen...or will she? who the hell knows because life sucks balls sometimes and we gotta perservere and still love God...in the end hell make all things right but for now life just so...ugh...who knows...she made my days clearer thats all i knew and now that shes gone my lifes shot to shit...i thought maybe i had a chance...and some girl told her some BS about me and she believed it and now thinks im a manwhore or whatever...whoh the hell knows anymore...my friends are golden to me...shes still worth more...God is numero uno....but where the hell do i go from here?