Perseverance:"The Act Of Trying Even When You Don't Want To"

well...tonight was interesting...golfing today was fun...tyler then came into town and he mikey and i drove around...got shakes and fries and went to wal-mart...where we say Tony Jelso and then shortly thereafter watched Wall-E on the 42-inch TV display while sitting on the floor for an hour. That was fun...we drove around downtown then went to look for anything to do ended up at the bowling alle drove off the curb in tylers bronco and got a flat...but thats not all...while we waited for Nick Rose to come with a jack...we got to venting...tyler went on about how everyone gets to party and get shit-faced and we try to be good guys and get shit on by everybody and everything else...how crap always happens to us...why dont we get a break...mike complained about how he didnt get laid...Nick got there and i started ranting about her...again...mikey was saying well if you hate life just get some whiskey and drink it away if thats what you want...i told him this. "what i want? what i want is to take hannah apologize and love her watch Mrs. Congeniality eat ben and jerry's chocolate chip cookie dough and cry with her under my red fuzzy blanky where i can feel warm and safe from life hardships...where all my problems get washed away...is with her" thats what i want...but i dont get that...nice guys finish last right? everyone else gets a break while we average joes try to be the good ones and get crapped on in the meantime...mikey still complained about how god hasnt sent him his virgin...he gives me shit because i write blogs about how life is so damn confusing...Nick Rose was lauhging and mentioned the cat pee on my redblanket that happened like 6 months ago...and i made some metaphor about how the cat pee is sin and jesus is going to wash my red blanky or what not...and i told Nick no matter how hard i try or dont try or do what she says or not or anything its not like she'll take me back...we cant be the dynamic jesus duo...she wont let it happen...or will she? who the hell knows because life sucks balls sometimes and we gotta perservere and still love God...in the end hell make all things right but for now life just so...ugh...who knows...she made my days clearer thats all i knew and now that shes gone my lifes shot to shit...i thought maybe i had a chance...and some girl told her some BS about me and she believed it and now thinks im a manwhore or whatever...whoh the hell knows anymore...my friends are golden to me...shes still worth more...God is numero uno....but where the hell do i go from here?