i know i took it too far...but this is what i told my ex girlfriend hannah...im sorry God for my sins...

you know hannah...those people who say those things like that are retarded...i wanted to believe that for the longest time but i see your being an awesome friend to jimny...theres so much potenntial for a future us and i want to help you with jimmy to help him find god...and for you to help tyler follow my lead...i know i screwed up but EVERYONE deserves a second chance...it almost makes me mad but im catching myself here because i k now i cant do anything about it but ive asked at least 30 girls...and they all said if their boyfriend or husband were to actually tell them something like that...that they screwed up that big and they know it was wrong and they didnt mean it...they would give them a second chance...i mean you could have heard if rom tyler or someone years from now and be destroyed...but i just keep on thinking about how great and dominant we would be if we were together...like we have said before it would be like a younger chris and ashley because all of our close and even distant friends would follow our lead you know? i mean im not perfect...i stumble but i learn from my mistakes hannah...im a hormone driven teen just like how our relationship was sometimes...you are just as guilty as i was on almost every front in our relationship whether that meant giving in to physical desire or ignoring me for friends...i admit i did it a little more but you did too...you gave my friend a lapdance for freakin sakes i mean it meant nothing but thats just so...ugh! you know? like wtf...hittin on my friend or whatever people call a lapdance...i know ive changed and my life took a 180 degree turn that night...she shoved me against a wall kissed the side of my lip and i shoved her off because i knew i loved you so deeply i wasnt going to let my hormones win that time...hannah...i know its tough and you just want to stay mad at me and heartbroken...but just come back hannah...itll be hard for us i know but we can make it...just come over and we can talk it out at first...then we can crack open the bible and everything i promise...we can even buy the chrisitan relationship 101 books like chris said...but even right now im wrong doing because im trying to take this into my own hands and not gods...im sorry...i just messed up...and if you do love god so much...idk i just think about it as he would give me another chance so why cant you follow the perfect and holy gods example....i mean im not saying to give me chance after chance...but just one to show you im different in every way....please? id do anything...id humiliate myself in front of everyone if that meant falling on my knees and begging for a chance...i just see the dynamics of us impacting everyone...even the young life leaders...thinking of awesome we would be knowing were god focused and not just going off of what we know...im sorry i let sin win so many times...but i have god on my side now...just come back hannah...come back...